blurry line

where does the life you are called to live and the life you are living begin and end? i've been thinking about this more than usual lately. maybe it's because i'm riding a spiritual and emotional high, having returned from a wonderful weekend of conscious thought. but it does seem an important question to unravel. knowing your limitations, a good thing? or is it best to not go there to begin with and look into the bright-shinning light, squint your eyes, reach and try and feel your way around. the power of systematic action in every form, in every area of life, cannot be disputed. it is necessary in creating lasting and continual effect. i am slowly beginning to figure out how to consistently achieve this. i am a scientist. trial and error. testing and concluding. challenged a times by my wandering procrastinating mind that settles into soft gray spaces and gets all too comfortable. breaking routine has proven the most beneficial and helpful thing, which is just plain ironic. breaking order to achieve order.