letting go...holding on

the hardest part is letting go. of friendships, of family. that loss is the hardest part about this process. the friends in chicago. all those guys in atlanta. or what about all the family in nashville? beautiful cousins and siblings i've formed friendships with? am i to let them go? it's awkward. and how i wish it weren't. how i wish i could save time in a bottle. package up all the knowns and keep them safe on the mantle. marriage is meant to birth unity and its foundations. unity surmounts the obstacles. brings pieces together. bonds and melts each of us into one soul. one unit. one. there is no disputing the breaking of that unity being so discouraged. breaking apart bonds and lives. disrupting the union. how i wish i could paint healing strokes of color across the edges of those broken lines. bring a new life and shape to them. piece friendships, families together. they can never be what they once were, but can they not be? can they not exist in a new way? in a more profound and lasting way that goes beyond the knots of legality? can they not be rooted in the world of the spirit? can they not bear new and more succulent fruit? more intoxicating perfume? this is my one wish now. i humbly shoot it up to God, up in the infinite corners of creation beyond the confines of time and space and pray that He will bestow this small wish in some way, shape or form.